I’m a river in your storm,

You had passed me like a thought,

When you filled me with your form,

Did just one of us get caught?

 

Now I’m prodding through faces,

Replaying every clue,

These days I get high on any

Lingering trace of you

 

Watch me tear open the skies

For a glimpse of your rain

Every drop of your blue

Leaves a pretty, effervescent stain

 

I’ll find the tiniest shimmers

In the depths of my open scars,

Show you the shiniest glimmers,

A veneer of a thousand stars.

 

My greatest fear remains that

You’ll love me just as I do

A shiny trophy you’d obtain then

Turn away for something brand new

 

Still, I can’t resist like you resist me

You’ve cut through my blood and veins,

These empty bottles never fixed me,

I’m breathless from all your mundanes,

Your laugh alone can just lift me,

Vivid colours numb my brain,

 

But God,

When I’m wrecked from the fall,

I’m going to miss how my problems used to drip with champagne.

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— 31/12/21